So overall yesterday was nice and vibey. Struggled a bit with the last hour of work but things went swimmingly after that. Lets see, I had my tapping session, specifically on procrastination. It didn’t go fully away, but after 30 minutes of tapping stuff comes up you didn’t know you had. Future tapping targets if you will. If you would also like to tap on it, or tap on it at a later stage (see what I did there 😛 ), here is a helpful vid.
The following is based on an immersion program created by David and Kristin Morelli. From what I can tell it is based on an experiment performed by NASA to test the stress effects of zero gravity on their astronauts. I can’t for the life of me remember where I first read about this experiment, probably Think and Grow Rich by Napoleon Hill, but right now I am using trying to find the source for reference purposes as a form of procrastination. If you would like more information about the experiment, ask and I’ll probably detail it in a follow up post. Getting back on point… I’m sure that the temptation of Christ had something to do with the naming of the program, just to give it that Jungian unconsciousness mythic support. If your interested, you can check there first program here or sign-up for the new one here.
My ego has a pimp slap. For those of you unfamiliar with what a pimp slap is, the Urban Dictionary defines it as “The act of backhanding the cheek, delivering the blow from across the body”. For example, a pimp will slap his business associate solidly and exclaim, “Bitch, where’s my money?” thus asserting dominance.
So how is it that my ego has a pimp slap you may wonder? Well it comes out of nowhere, as unexpected assaults generally do, a memory flashes across my mind devouring all other thoughts like a hungry cannibal, then departs leaving behind the taint of acute embarrassment and feelings of inadequacy. The offending memory varies from an insignificant misplaced word to a personal action that others may have found amusing at my cost and the results of these mental assaults are just as varied, ranging from a cringe to a violent convulsion. Why, just this morning whilst taking a bath I was forced to relive standing in front of the class in high-school, singing some or other song. I nearly drowned in guilt, shame and bathwater.
It must be the soul in Bruno’s voice. That’s probably what caught me about this song the first time I heard it on the radio. And then I saw the music video which just sealed the deal for me, LUV IT! I love how while the chorus of the song is about the fulfilment of self, all the actions that take place in the video have charity and giving at its centre.
Note: I recognise that the following sounds insane. You are under no obligation to believe it.
Excuses, excuses. Always there are excuses. Whether it is the cold weather outside or we just think we deserve a break, it is always possible to rationalize not doing the work you know needs to be done. This is especially so when it is work you set for yourself and are accountable only to yourself. Sooner or later, constantly braking vows you make to yourself has a cost.
I need to get down to work. More over I need to get very focused about it. And I’m thinking since writing is the strongest asset I’ve got, everything else just needs to wait while I focus on that. I’m actually a good writer but this blog hasn’t reflected that. This blog for the moment has been about quantity, about a steady output of work. Furthermore if writing is going to become my sole focus I need to master my basic tools. I have yet to master touch-typing. I’ve always let frustration beat me in this, but no longer. And I’ve got my copy of The Elements of Style which I must gorge myself on.
So I’m really enjoying the Jack Parow album. Like a lot, a lot. On one of (what is for me) the stand-out tracks, “Die Vraagstuk (remix)” he takes the time to declare to the world, “This is what I want, this is the life I want to lead. These are the simple pleasures I want to enjoy.” It is a refreshing change of pace from what usually goes on in the “rap game”.
[Breaking News from inside Jay-Z’s camp – His new album will focus on themes of Wealth and Self-Confidence]
See, it gets a bit same-y. Anyway, here’s an extract from the track in question (side note: I prefer the album version, the original done with Die Heuwels Fantasties does absolutely nothing for me)
Honestly I don’t have a whole hell of a lot to say just yet. I was bad over the weekend and didn’t take/make time for working through the modules as I had hoped to.
I continued working through the modules last night though. Re-did the Bagha programming module, did the Solution exercise (will see if that pans out, answer was very abstract). And then there was some 40 minutes of lecture on concepts that I’ll probably re-do tonight. Should probably work on the dwadle.
Also I’ve become to attached to the outcome of these Alpha exercises, which of course impairs the experience somewhat. I need to take some time to recentre myself and let go of all expectations. My mantra seems to be “Let go and let God” more often than not when I feel I need to get more aligned with the exercise.
So yeah, I think I’ve figured out a system for this, Mini Updates for slow days reporting, “Meet the” feature when there are more dopplegangers to introduce and longer posts when I have enough info to warrant one, and of course when I get really excited about accomplishing something.